It’s really long and complicated. I’ve mostly just felt for a while now that things have been off between us. We honestly act more like friends than lovers. And then the constant arguing.. With me graduating next month and moving wherever, I just felt like it was time to move on.
No one should ever feel like they are settling in a relationship. Don’t get me wrong, I love him. But feelings change and we aren’t the same people we were 3 years ago.
I don’t want to stay in a relationship just because it’s easier and then 5-10 years down the road wonder if I should have left. I don’t want regret. And if it’s actually meant to be then it’ll be.
Well I pretty much broke up with my boyfriend last night. I woke up and my eyes are all fucking puffy from crying so much.
It’ll be ok eventually, for both of us. I know it’s part of life. But it sucks right now.
My thanksgiving consisted of getting wine drunk at my grandma’s and eating turkey and mashed potatoes.
Best day ever.
I listen to the wind, to the wind of my soul….